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[Oct. 28th, 2009|08:47 am] |
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This going to be some sort of emotional pst for me. Well after 34months being together, i guess its finally over. or should i not consider it as over? I refused to consider it as over because i really want her back. today is day 5 without being with her. im doing okay but i do still think of her. looking back at the recent coach chalet photos, she was there having fun riding her bike. we played games together. everything was just normal. But on last friday, for one incident, it take us down to what we are now. i just felt it should not happened. it can be prevented and we will still be together.
I did gather all my thoughts and did some soul searching up till today as to what went wrong. i did get an answer for it. I want to mend your heart and be a better person for myself and for you. i just need chance to prove it to you. i really know that chance will not come soon but what i wanna know is, are you willing to give me the chance? or should i just keep trying till there is no hope?? i dont know. I wanna believe that you will eventually give me the chance but i dont want to waste what i had in mind for you.
I have been doing what you have asked me to do. im working now. And soon im going to go for my dental treatment. I wear the ring you bought for me everyday now. That helps to tell me not to give up on winning you back. I wish on that day you were abit patience with me but i know you. patience is not the postive side of you. I understand that and i accepted you as you are. I did a mistake there which is not trusting you. I regret it terribly. Now i know how it feels like not to be trusted and very well know what is trust now. Trust is giving her the freedom to live her life to the fullest without doubting and being overprotective cause at the end of the day, you is what she looking for. Sigh.
I really hope you will wait for me and give me a chance. I missed you, really do.
take care and we will meet soon.
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[Sep. 26th, 2009|12:03 am] |
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Times have been tough recently. Well i can the suckiest moments of my life. I dont know how many suckiest moments i experience but im sure this are not the worse yet.
Being studying like Isaac Eistien lately, I wonder did he even study or make it through high school? Studied like 6 hours and i am sure that my in between break, in total was only like 30mins.
Remedial had been helpful. To cheer myself up, went to Queensway Shopping Center and bought myself Mercurial Superfly Black/Voltage. Awesome. Felt content after that.
I dont think i will be studying tmr. Out raya-ing with cousins.
Well ya, times like this, i am on my own. that is all to it.
Good luck to me.
Hope you had fun and thanks for forgetting me.
But yet, i love you. i just dont know why.
Night people.
Hey Brenda, hang out with me one day? dont tell me to hang out at the ward next week. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2009|12:02 am] |
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Alright it has awhile i had wrote something here. Well, nowadays i dont feel like writting anything here already.
Hmm, gf and i bought our baju kurung already. Imagine me having a size S and still need to alter. Damn im really small build body. Its ok, after puasa im going to get back to my training. Btw this year we are the red hot chilli pepper. =)
Just know that im learning motor and will be enrolling after raye. =) |
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|12:26 pm] |
Firstly, may you rest in peace Fairuz's Dad. Al- Fateha.
Second, Sometimes i wish I have the Tahirah when i first knew her. Simple and Sweet. Random calls me whenever she misses me. Not much of a temper. Blog about me and us which makes her happy. Just the simple things that she does will make feel content and happy.
Now? She is just too complicated. I tried to understand what she wants but why must it go overboard? Just maybe everything i thought could be all wrong. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2009|06:48 pm] |
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Tomorrow shall be Sanziro FC first tournament match against Devilskop FC. Had soccer training and watch actually geared up for tomorrow's match not until, i am appointed as captain of the team for the match. First i felt honoured being the captain but then again being captain is not easy. it is a big responsibility on the field. But im determined to do well with the arm band which will be given to me. I want to make the team proud. I want to make Coach and the manager proud. I want to make myself feel proud. And the very important person, my baby, Tahirah, i want to make her proud of me since she will be coming to support me. I want to make the effort and time she make to come down worthwhile. So 2 things in mind, is it going to be 7 or 8? and SANZIRO FC go for a draw or go for a win?
Im definitely going for a win. Just watch me. FR7 or FR8 on your way.
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